As I stated in my post on Monday, I had no intentions of quitting boot camp, so I got up yesterday and prepared myself for boot camp. I pulled out the sports tape and wrapped my purple foot all up. I arrived at boot camp and walked over to the instructors as casually as possible, and informed JoJo of what I did to my foot. Apparently, she had already read my blog and was surprised to see me. After pleading my case, and plenty of encouraging words from JoJo, I was forced to face reality and the fact that it was in my best interest to go home, give my foot a rest and not participate in boot camp. We did agree, however, that if I was feeling better on Friday, the final day of boot camp, I could try to participate in what I could. Maybe the running part would have to wait until next week or so.
Here I go again, adding one more thing to my start and not finsh list. Seems like everytime I get excited about doing something, something happens where I can’t finish or it’s too hard and I quit. I wanted this to be different. I already had my next size clothes ready to try on in a week or two.
When I arrived back home, I told Kristy what happened. After we talked about it for a bit over a cup of coffee, I went upstairs and got ready for work. Having difficulty keeping back my tears, I arrived at work, walked into my office and closed the door until I could get myself together.
Of course, it turned out to be the day from Hell. Patients were cranky, the doctors were cranky and so was the staff. Being that it’s my job to keep order and keep the practice running smoothly, I had to put on my fake happy face and get to work. After a while, things calmed down and I was able to take a breath. Just then, Bridget, one of my boot camp instructors, called to check in on me. Immeadiately, my eyes filled with tears. Bridget knew I would be upset and started giving me the old “It’s not whether you get knocked down, it’s whether you get up.” speach by Vince Lombardi. And you know what? It’s true!
Luckily, I have always been blessed with a strong support system. I have a wonderful partner who knows me better than I know myself. I have great friends who have always been by my side in good times and bad, and I have a great job that I love. So, when I started boot camp, I increased my support systme 10 fold. I have never had so many people who want me to succeed and you know what? I am not going to let them down. Better yet, I am not letting myself down.
Yes, being injured really sucks and the old Lisa would just gave up and went back to my old way. The problem with the old way is the only possible end would be the end of my life and I’m not ready for that to happen yet. So the only choice I’m left with is to suck it up and keep going.